.. eleven ..

Week 24!

The babies are now a little bit over a pound. Their brains are also growing quickly now, and their taste buds are continuing to develop. Their lungs are developing "branches" of the respiratory "tree." Studies show that babies finds gentle music and your own voice most soothing. Nipples are starting to sprout, and their little faces are fully formed. And, they are starting to settle into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day.

It is exciting this week because I am starting to feel you both move a bit more. It mostly feels like pop corn popping. So keep on doing it, it is amazing!!

Daddy has been working upstairs a lot and your room is beginning to look wonderful. The second bedroom upstairs is just about finished and then your room should be done after that. We love you lots and keep on growing!!!

.. ten ..

Today, Daddy, AJ and got to see you both at your big ultra sound. First you both were snuggled up nose to nose and not wanting to move so the lady could get her measurements. You both did great! Baby A weighed 14oz and Baby B weighed 13oz. It took some time and some shaking of my belly, but you both finally began to wiggle around. We had the chance to see your hearts, legs, arms, bellies, and heads. Everything was great! We all giggled because we saw your feet, they seemed to be a little big, but that only means there is more to love! Grandma Shell is very excited for your arrival. She has already begun spoiling you. This past weekend she bought you some more toys and diapers. Grandma Charlene calls all the time to check in and see how your doing. She is just as excited as Grandma Shell for you to arrive. We want you to stay in there a lot longer to keep growing! We love you both very much and can't wait to meet you. We will see you again in December. We will have another ultra sound then and it will be interesting to see how you've grown in a month.

More later....

.. nine ..

Two months...shame on me. Sorry babies for being a slacker on the posting. I will try to update weekly, since we are half way done!

Okay, so it's week 19 and things are going quickly. I still am waiting to feel you kick and punch me, but that hasn't happened yet. So, anytime you are ready to let me know you're in there and okay, that will be fine with me.

Everything has been going well. You made me sick for about 4 months, nothing too terrible though. All of your ultra sounds have been good and all our blood work looks good too.

We go back to the doctor on Wednesday, November 18 for a check-up and ultra sound (I love seeing you in there!) Then on the 30th, we go for the big ultra sound. We could find out what you two are, but we are going to have the tech put the answer in two envelopes which will be opened at daddy and mommy's anniversary on December 31.

Well, that's it for now, until next week...

.. eight ..

Another month has come and gone and lots of new developments are being made.

R and I went to Las Vegas during week 7...R had fun, I was sick.

We had both of our appointments. The first one was with a nurse and she answered questions and took our family medical history. She sent me for blood work and that was the end of that.

Then on September 4, 2009, we went for our ultrasound. I was really nervous and anxious, we were called in and she began to look for the baby. I didn't see it right away, but she found it and said, "there's a baby! Oh, and there's another one!" Holy cow, she just said we were having TWINS. I couldn't believe it. R said he felt a tear well up and I began to cry right away.

We waited so long for this and after thinking it wouldn't happen, we are pregnant with two. Then the shock set in. How in the world are we going to take care of two? Our families are so excited, we said we wanted to wait to tell them, but that didn't happen. We told them on Friday evening. They couldn't be happier and neither could we.

Our due date has been changed to April 8, 2010. We can't wait to meet you babies!!

More later...

.. seven ..

Well, since my last post it's been a while and I have lots to report.

The first cycle of clomid was in June and while I did have a good follicle, we weren't successful that cycle.

Round two...July. Started off weird. My period came and I called the doctor she wanted to keep me at 50mg of clomid (the same as June) I was disappointed about that because we failed the first cycle, I thought we should go to up to 100mg of clomid. She also changed the days I needed to take the pill, day 3, 4, 5, 6 and 7 (June was 5, 6, 7, 8 and 9.) So, we did what she said and when I went in for the ultra sound, nothing. She said oh..there is a tiny one, but it doesn't look so good. I just saw a girl who go pregnant on her third cycle. We'll see you next month. I walked out of the office, crying. I was so upset.

Fast forward to August 2, 2009...the day my period was due. I usually begin to spot a few days before and there was no spotting, I thought I was doing it to myself, getting so anxious I was affecting her arrival. So, I took a pregnancy test. I figured if I saw the negative I could deal with that and then she would show up and we could begin cycle three. Well, as soon as I looked at the test, there were TWO LINES!! WTF? This can't be right?

We kept it cool that day, since it was a dollar store test we didn't give it too much credit. So the next morning I took my digital test and almost immediately, it popped up PREGNANT! Holy cow...it happened. The cycle we didn't really try or put too much thought into, got us our little one.

So, we have our first appointment on August 27 and then on September 4 for our first ultra sound. We are going to wait until the second trimester to tell our friends and family. It is going to be so hard for me. R says he can wait, but I need to tell some one.

I can't wait for my friends and family to read my posting and know that we can't wait to share our news with them.

Oh...by April 12, 2010 the Young One will be here!!!

More later...

.. six ..

Today I went for an ultra sound to see if I am producing any follicles. I have a good one on my right side. When she said that I wanted to jump for joy. Now we know everything is set up and ready for R swimmers to do their thing. Hopefully we will get some good news soon!

Clomid wasn't too bad, I did get sick. I am not sure if I was sick b/c of the Clomid or b/c or a virus. Anyway, it wasn't too bad at all. Now we are just waiting to see if things work out for us.

More to come...

.. five ..

At the end of May we got word R's swimmers were doing well and his test came back all within the normal limits.

Today, June 1, we had a doctor's appointment. I was shocked on Saturday to get a phone call from the doctors office saying we had an appointment, I thought it wouldn't be until the 8th. So, R and I scrambled to call work and let them know we wouldn't be in this morning and I had to rush to work this morning to write lesson plans and organize my room.

Anyway, we get to the office and wait forever in the waiting room, only to be taken in to be seen by the NURSE! OMG...I was a little peeved. We have yet to see a doctor. Anyway, they didn't cancel the appointment with the nurse, and we have one scheduled next week with the doctor, but we can't keep taking off from work. So we met with the nurse (who I really feel very comfortable with) and she gave us some info.

She told us again that our tests looked good and we can still get KU with only one tube. So, as soon as AF gets here I will begin Clomid. Now I want AF to show up and she is no where to be found.

Oh...that sounds good you say. Not so fast. I took a HPT this morning and got a BFN. Anyway, I've been spotting, so hopefully she will show up sooner than later.

I've been reading all these blogs about TTC and trouble TTC...it's making me nuts. I am picturing the worst right now, but I know I need to keep positive and patient. What happens, happens for a reason.

More later...

.. four ..

HSG

Today was my HSG test. It hurt a lot! I read that there would be cramping and the nurse told me if there was a blockage, then it usually is more painful. Well, holy crap! It was painful. Now I know if I want to have a baby and give birth, I am in for a lot more pain, but wow. Today was not fun.

Anyway, one of my tubes is blocked. While they were doing the test, I heard them say inject more dye to see more of the blockage, but they didn't. I wish I could have stopped squirming and sucked up the pain so they could have seen more. Anyway, we are waiting to schedule a follow up appointment to go over the results of all the tests.

More to come...

..three..

This week we went for our first round of tests. R went to his place and did his "thing." We should get results from his test in two weeks.

I went today, Saturday, for my blood work.

Tuesday, May 5 I will be going to have my HSG test. There was drama with that for a minute. When I called to schedule the appointment the nurse said they didn't have an appointment, so I would have to wait until JUNE! So, she made a call to the radiology department and they moved things around so I could get in on Tuesday.

So we are on our way...

two

So, we had our initial appointment at the GYN. She said everything looks good on paper, but she wants to send us for blood work and a couple of other tests. We have to wait until CD3 to get my blood work and then CD6 for my HSG test. Rahmeer will have to go do his "thing" in a cup too. So, hopefully we will begin to get more answers by May.

We also got some good insurance news...they will pay 100% of the diagnosis and treatment of an underlying medical condition that causes infertility. So, since we met our $250 deductible in February because of the Schwannonma, we can bring on the baby testing!

More later...

one

Well...I am going to give this a try. I have read other TTC blogs and it is a nice way to go back and see the journey the couple has went on. I am not only going to post things on TTC, but I will try and keep it more like a journal of sorts. I will, however, try to keep the readers of this blog updated on our TTC adventure.

What an adventure it has been or is turning into. We have been off BC for a year and TTC for a year as well. Without having any luck whatsoever, we are heading to the doctor on April 13 to see about getting some answers.

It has been very emotional so far and we are still at the beginning of the ride. Last month we had a set back because I went to the emergency room for pain in my lower abdomen. They found a cyst on my ovary and a mass. WTF...a mass? Talk about a curve ball. Well it turned out to be something called a Schwannoma.

The Schwannoma is growing below my spine behind my rectum (hot I know.) The neurosurgeon said it is the size of an egg and it can stay in there for now since it is tucked away and not causing any pain. The surgery to remove it is going to be pretty invasive and a bit dangerous. So keeping it in right now is the best option, at least in my opinion.

So great. I have a Schwannoma in me but we got the all clear to go ahead and try for a baby again. Is that selfish? Is it selfish that I want a baby, but didn't get this thing removed before having one? I don't know, I wish I had someone to make my decisions for me, but I guess that is part of being an adult.