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Well...I am going to give this a try. I have read other TTC blogs and it is a nice way to go back and see the journey the couple has went on. I am not only going to post things on TTC, but I will try and keep it more like a journal of sorts. I will, however, try to keep the readers of this blog updated on our TTC adventure.

What an adventure it has been or is turning into. We have been off BC for a year and TTC for a year as well. Without having any luck whatsoever, we are heading to the doctor on April 13 to see about getting some answers.

It has been very emotional so far and we are still at the beginning of the ride. Last month we had a set back because I went to the emergency room for pain in my lower abdomen. They found a cyst on my ovary and a mass. WTF...a mass? Talk about a curve ball. Well it turned out to be something called a Schwannoma.

The Schwannoma is growing below my spine behind my rectum (hot I know.) The neurosurgeon said it is the size of an egg and it can stay in there for now since it is tucked away and not causing any pain. The surgery to remove it is going to be pretty invasive and a bit dangerous. So keeping it in right now is the best option, at least in my opinion.

So great. I have a Schwannoma in me but we got the all clear to go ahead and try for a baby again. Is that selfish? Is it selfish that I want a baby, but didn't get this thing removed before having one? I don't know, I wish I had someone to make my decisions for me, but I guess that is part of being an adult.